For a long time I was going to church depressed and in pain but I did not know it. All I knew is that when I prayed and when I praised God, I was relieved for a few days. But then something would go wrong and all of the goodness I was getting from God would deflate, like a balloon. One day I realized that for a long time I was praying but I was not expressing specific hurts. Parts of my heart had little locks and I had all their little keys hiding in different places.
David was a psalmist. He wrote and sang what he felt, no holding back. David knew how to give God everything, the good, the bad and the ugly. As shown in this verse, at times he felt so overwhelmed that he just wanted to die. Yet David knew that telling God all was a good thing.
Unfortunately for me, I was under the wrong impression that God only wanted my good days and nothing to do with the old habits and wretched things about me. Fortunately for me, my random episodes of depression was God’s way of pushing out all of my hidden pain to the surface. When God calls you He wants all of you not just parts of you.
If you feel pain, be in pain. If you feel hurt, be hurt. If you feel angry, be angry. If you don’t want to forgive, then tell Him that you don’t want to. There is so much that God does when you simply confess things out of your mouth.
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